5.2.2 Learning to Learn Commentary - Managing time, managing promises

Renegotiation

I had originally intended to finish this OP 5 in December.  Jennifer offered sound advice that helped me understand I should give myself one more month.  This created spaciousness during family holidays.  There was clear communication and this gave me more breathing room to complete everything.    I am very easeful about giving myself more space as I want to do each project well; simultaneously, I recognize that Gaia's presence helps me come to completion.  

Points of Intervention

Originally, I had intended to make this OP largely about my website (and myself).  During my advisor training program, I became fascinated not only with "What" I have learned this year, but the "how" I have learned as well.  This focus on the process rather than the "content" which is largely what I wanted to generate for the website: Content of my learnings.  I am grateful that I stacked functions and inspired myself to create a website for this project as it feels like a wonderful capstone on this precapstone year.  And I am glad I relegated this to a small portion of my supporting evidence with the focus on key learnings: the how.  As most of the OP 5 Learning Review is my own reflection, most of the shifts were merely in my head as I get fascinated about new things.  No other major changes to report.

I am gaining capacity at knowing how long things will take me especially regarding repeatable situations like OP's.  However, I am becoming significantly more competent with each OP; therefore, timing elements for the OP process are shifting.   I generally use all the time that I havein conjunction with all the energy I can give a project.  Simultaneously, when a project feels coming to a close, I see the reality of it more, and perhaps work more diligently.  Deadlines are good for me or every project would be infinite. 

For the most part, all of my timings were realistic, the renegotiations that I did take were to allow space in the Life Happens category.   I could have stayed true to original timelines had it been necessary. I am becoming much more acutely aware of where my time goes and often it is not spent judiciously. Deadlines are extremely helpful to me to feel productive and inspired.  I appreciate that my life contains much time for ease and simultaneously, I appreciate the inspiration to be productive.  This is a balance I must walk as many have seen me as a lazy drifter while many have seen me as a workaholic.  Maybe different times of life.